OK, I'm worthless now.

[Morella]

My doctor filed the disability paperwork. I didn't see it, but I know the reasons he was putting on it because we discussed it:

Chronic pain

Loss of concentration

High dosage of sedating medication required

Vertigo, not responding to vestibular therapy

Chronic hallucinations

I used to be the "I'll always keep working no matter what" type, but I was finally broken. If it weren't for Tony, I would write a suicide note, witty and entertaining, put it in plastic, crawl into the hearse, and put a bullet through my head with my Llama .45, fitting since everyone says that it's worthless too. Tony will keep me going, though.

-denise

[Psychoholic]

I'm of the school of thought that when you bust your ass for a large portion of your life, there should at least be a nice long while when you can sit back and relax and take an objective look at the world from the comfort of your own couch.

Hell, if nothing else, it will give you the time and freedom to spend on your game development or wasting time online chatting with folks and trying to find that perfect thing to occupy a few minutes of each day.

I guess it's lucky for the rest of us that you do have Tony, I think the world would be a good bit worse off without you around - and yes, people would notice and be sad.

[StrayCat]

On a lighter note, the symptoms you described, hell, even including the pain, was the way I spent most of my highschool life,lol. So Pretend you are young again and do the best you can to say" fuck it", i'd much rather have my tax dollars go to you rather than julio, or paco, or jesus,( either one of them)!!!!!

I am soooo going to hell. I think i'll start investing into a time share now........

[Morella]

I'm of the school of thought that when you bust your ass for a large portion of your life, there should at least be a nice long while when you can sit back and relax and take an objective look at the world from the comfort of your own couch.

I wasn't planning on starting this soon, but we pay into these disability plans in case we end up too fucked up to work, and that's just the way it worked out. I actually pissed off my boss by holding out longer than I should have, when I finally told him what was going on. It isn't fair to his crew for me to be holding a position when I'm not in shape to do the work, and there isn't any way for him or me to quantify it. When I figured out that I was seeing text sliding off the screen and trying to use a mouse and periods to hold it back up there, and I was typing garbage, having to shake my head and retype it all, when that really hit home, I had to tell him. We tried part-time, and that was too much, so I had to change my philosophy. I still have no respect for people who don't ever try to get educated and work, though.

On a lighter note, the symptoms you described, hell, even including the pain, was the way I spent most of my highschool life,lol. So Pretend you are young again and do the best you can to say" fuck it",

So much pain in high school? That's a bad hand to be dealt. I felt OK physically, and did paper routes when I was 13-15. I didn't start learning about chronic pain until my accident in 89.

You're right, I do need to get rid of the guilt. That could be a mindfuck if I let it.

-denise

[cataura]

Work sucks, but I guess not as bad as wishing you could. I hope that you find something you enjoy to spend your time doing. As creative as you are I wouldn't be surprised if you become a millionaire with so much time to yourself.

[BIGEVIL]

As creative as you are I wouldn't be surprised if you become a millionaire with so much time to yourself.

Creative? Shit! You should see her digital dash/instrument clusters. Next million dollar idea? I'll pay you to do one for me!

[spastic_chicken]

Creative? Shit! You should see her digital dash/instrument clusters. Next million dollar idea? I'll pay you to do one for me!

Pics?

[BIGEVIL]

Yeah, no shit Denise! You want an undeclared income? Take a look at this dash. I know you can build this stuff. http://www.termpro.com/showcars/term...erminator.html

How about a car alarm system that shocks someone with 100,000 volts? How about your own version of automatic air suspension? Any cool ideas from "pimp my ride" or "monster garage" you could market to us? Use those mad evil skills of yours! You are not worthless!!

[StrayCat]

Actually, the car alarm shock thing is illegal in most if not all states. I had a power inverter attached to the two front doors on a limo i had. some dumbass grabbed hold of it and shocked the ever loving shit out of himself, and i spent a night in jail.