What is the best way to commit suicide? I want to do it in the hearse because Tony hates it anyway and it will get impounded. I already put down blankets to soak up the blood and bodily fluids.
I tried putting a gun to my head and I just couldn't bring myself to pull the trigger. I don't even know where on my head to put the barrel to make it painless. I had a friend of a friend who had full-blown AIDS and tried that, ended up in the hospital with his skull put together, and tried to get through the crack with a pencil and finish himself off. Putting it in your mouth doesn't necessarily work, either. You can blow your face off, which wouldn't make any difference to me since I never leave the house anyway, but it would be hard to eat Pop-Tarts without teeth.
I could swallow a whole bottle of oxycontin and valium, but if I puke it out, I'll just be out of pain medicine.
Auto accident? I've seen them on COPS walk away from 100 mph or higher collisions, and I might just fuck up my neck more.
Let the car run in the garage? I don't have any doors on it.
Nitrous, I could easily do, and it's even enjoyable. You just hallucinate and feel good until you go to sleep, and you don't wake up. I've taken it as far as going into convulsions, until my asshole friend ripped the bag off of my head, but I don't have any nitrous, and you can't use racing stuff. It has to be USP Medical, and the gas house usually won't sell it without a prescription. Sheehan's in Boise used to do it for me, but we only have one gas house here.
Any other ideas?
And no, I'm not asking for sympathy, and I don't want to be talked out of it. I used to think that people who talked about suicide just wanted attention, until I lost two friends one year after they talked about it continuously. After just failing it once, I don't think that I could do it again right now, but I would like to have a plan, for the next time I think I can do it.
Thanks,
denise
I tried putting a gun to my head and I just couldn't bring myself to pull the trigger. I don't even know where on my head to put the barrel to make it painless. I had a friend of a friend who had full-blown AIDS and tried that, ended up in the hospital with his skull put together, and tried to get through the crack with a pencil and finish himself off. Putting it in your mouth doesn't necessarily work, either. You can blow your face off, which wouldn't make any difference to me since I never leave the house anyway, but it would be hard to eat Pop-Tarts without teeth.
I could swallow a whole bottle of oxycontin and valium, but if I puke it out, I'll just be out of pain medicine.
Auto accident? I've seen them on COPS walk away from 100 mph or higher collisions, and I might just fuck up my neck more.
Let the car run in the garage? I don't have any doors on it.
Nitrous, I could easily do, and it's even enjoyable. You just hallucinate and feel good until you go to sleep, and you don't wake up. I've taken it as far as going into convulsions, until my asshole friend ripped the bag off of my head, but I don't have any nitrous, and you can't use racing stuff. It has to be USP Medical, and the gas house usually won't sell it without a prescription. Sheehan's in Boise used to do it for me, but we only have one gas house here.
Any other ideas?
And no, I'm not asking for sympathy, and I don't want to be talked out of it. I used to think that people who talked about suicide just wanted attention, until I lost two friends one year after they talked about it continuously. After just failing it once, I don't think that I could do it again right now, but I would like to have a plan, for the next time I think I can do it.
Thanks,
denise
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