When I worked nights, I worked with a guy named OT - who is, hands down, one of the smartest, funniest, and most articulate people I know and one of my best friends. I've been giving him shit for years as being caramel and not really black because of a more medium complexion, but he's still black. He grew up in a fairly poor part of Brooklyn New York, dad is a bus driver for the city, etc...
We had a crew leader whom everyone called "Nigger Jerry". In Texas, where I have spent most of my life, the dreaded N-word is not an insult but a term of endearment, as long as it is said with a smile. I'm sure you've noticed that semantics don't bother me much. Although Tony looked like he was ready to pound a certain person into the ground for calling me a cunt, it reflected more on the user's background, to me. I prefer to insult people in a more civilized manner
Anyway, one day I needed something from Nigger Jerry, and right after I said, "Hey, Jerry...", he interrupted me with,
"Oh, it's Jerry now, huh? Every time somebody wants something from me it's 'Hey, Jerry? in this sweet little voice, and the rest of the time it's, HEY NIGGER!"
We both laughed our asses off over it. Jerry loved to fight, and I was always up for it...one of those things that I can't do anymore. He usually pounded everyone's ass, but the little retarded guy who cleaned mowers knocked him out cold with a right hook one day, and he never heard the end of it. I could have broken his knee cap one day...I used a move from Hung Gar Kung Fu...he threw a kick at me, and I hooked his leg with mine and kicked his kneecap with all of his weight on it. I pulled back so that I didn't hurt him, though, and he returned the favor by pounding my ass into the ground. For a minute, I wish I had broken his knee, but the boss would have fired me for taking out a needed employee, and he was already helping me up and laughing about it with me anyway.
One day I asked Nigger Jerry if he would like to see a black president, and his reply was, "What the fuck difference would it make? He'd still be doing what the white folks told him to do." It appears that his theory may be put to the test, if Osama makes it into the "White" House without being assassinated. Tony has faith in the Secret Service, but I'm not so sure. When they closed BOI so that George Bush Sr. could land, I was out on the ramp, right underneath one of the sniper rifles, in fact. I had work to do, which was more important to me than any Republican politician's arrival. I used to be a hard-core liberal, but I grew out of it.
We all do come from different backgrounds, some of us from many of them, and there are many different types, and perhaps levels, of intelligence here. Of course we're going to disagree, but I believe that most of our disagreements are based on a lack of empathy, and, as it has been said, understanding of each other.
-denise
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